... running

so apparently im really bad at remembering to write on this thing. but oh well, the new goal is once a week! i can do that right? simply as pie. hm..... i do love pie! and its totally pie season-- pumpkin being my favorite of course!

okay...so the 'running' part of the title comes in right now. i have decided to run a marathon in the spring. pretty hefty goal for a girl who used to hate running and has only run 4 miles in her whole life. i know what you are thinking "she is CRAZY!!" well, that little fact we knew already but just so you know, i no longer hate running...in fact, i LOVE it! it makes me feel good, it relieves stress, allows me to lose myself in the moment instead of thinking about all the things i have to do (like im doing right now)

anyhoo, so the reason im telling the world wide web is because i want to be held accountable for what im doing to say: i am going to run EVERYDAY from now until 2011. crazy huh? of course we are not including sundays.... and notice i didnt say HOW MUCH i am running because that will depend on the day, and with whom i am running. (dont you ever sometimes just want to use the word 'whom' so you reword the sentence so you can say it?)

sigh, i hope that made sense because my brain is going about a million miles an hour......

..... astonishing

ladies and gentlemen..... the semester is officially HALF WAY OVER!!!!!! WHOO-HOO!!!!!!!!

my first semester back off the mission hasn't been as bad as i thought however, that doesn't mean im not having issues. but one of the biggest things i've learned so far this year is that... i cannot be afraid to be myself. it doesn't matter if thats not who i was 2 years ago, or if that wasnt who i was six months ago...i must be me-- who i am right here, right now.

and that my friends, is a very hard thing to be. (especially if you dont know who you are). hm...... all i can think of is a song from the musical 'little women' (L-O-V-E it! which means i love it so much i will spell out the word love) anyways, its called 'astonishing'.... here it goes:

I thought home was all I'd ever want
My attic all I'd ever need.
Now nothing feels the way it was before
And I don't know how to proceed.
I only know I'm meant for something more
I've got to know if I can be
Astonishing

There's a life
That I am meant to lead
A life like nothing I have known
I can feel it
And it's far from here
I've got to find it on my own

Even now I feel it's heat upon my skin.
A life of passion that pulls me from within,
A life that I am making to begin.
There must be somewhere I can be
Astonishing
Astonishing

I'll find my way
I'll find it far away
I'll find it in unexpected and unknown
I'll find my life in my own way
Today

Here I go
And there's no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small
But I've got giant plans
To shine as greatly as the sun

I will blaze until I find my time and place
I will be fearless,
Surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disappear without a trace
I'll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet
Christopher Columbus
I'll be Astonishing
Astonishing
Astonishing

At Last

hm... not what i had planned on writing for this blog....interesting.......but i gotta go.... its time to be astonishing! :)

... peter pan!

so last night i was talking with my sister and as she was giving me some tough love (which dont worry.... was totally needed) i wrote in my journal.... "I DONT WANT TO GROW UP!!!!!!!!!"


really mature i know :) but growing up is hard.... its kind of like a slap in the face when you realize you aren't as mature, or as grown up as you thought you were; that deep down inside you are still that 9 year old girl that just wants everything to be like a disney movie (with the bursting out in songs and everything!)

so here's to corrine's journey of no more peter pan....i need a little more wendy.

... contemporary theory

so i am an anthropology major (way cool i know!) and one of the classes i'm taking this semester is a theory class. basically, we are studying 'the social construction of reality'.... sounds cool doesnt it? well.... it has really caused me to look at my life in different ways and lately, well... i've been feeling a little...... homeless. i no longer feel at home in north carolina, utah isnt home and new york is a far off dream. so... where is home? i dunno.

in one of the readings for theory class, the author says "i remain without inhabitable places in which to remain". hm..... so basically, i'm living yet i dont have a place in which to live. try wrapping your mind around that one!

anyhoo, this sense of homelessness has caused me to look outside of myself.... to look at the big picture. "where is home?" i think to myself. will it be grad school in boston or london? will it be in ghana? will it be some other place ive never dreamed of? who knows! i'm excited to find out though.